I overcame a few demons that where close to home this week. I spent so much time worrying about getting people to stand with me in life. Whats funny is there only reason I can stand now without them is because I was made to teach myself to do so by never getting their help. In a way they helped my by never giving me help.
I realized that sure a problem can be a terrible thing… but… the biggest product of a problem is a solution. They cannot exist without each-other. For so much time I was hurt and felt alone because I didn’t have particular things. Out of this problem now I can stand alone without them. I can face the wind and be strong. To know that I don’t need these things feels… well… there are no words the describe it but the song I linked might get you close.
Life if cool. If you put pressure on a object it breaks… but not life. When you put pressure on life it pushes back. It learn, grows and struggles until the pressure fails and is pushed back. A plant will grow faster in the dark.
The biggest thing I have learned from this is how to deal with pain. It doesn’t matter if it psychical, emotional or mental pain. I have these tools to take with me forever. I became comfortable in my pain and just kept building things. What ever I could until it just didn’t hurt me anymore,
It took me years to do this and at times I have to say I only kept going because I had to, because if I stooped I would have nothing. Just for the people who think there problem might be impossible it’s not. It’s only impossible for the you that exist in the present right now. There is you a you in the future that can fix these problems but you have to create that person. You need to build the skills, mentality and resources that future you will use.
The best advice I have ever got ia that you have to be there for yourself. You have to coach yourself, help and teach yourself because none eals is going to do it for you.